It feels far too long since I’ve sat down and written anything. I’ve thought about so many things to type out about what all God has been doing, but the motivation to actually do it never came. I couldn’t bring myself to type the words out. As I’ve stated a few times already, the last couple of years in my life have felt like I was just on survival mode. It was simply just trying to get through each day. And being in that place, sitting down to write about the things that God was hard. I couldn’t write anything because I was so busy just trying to understand it. Trying to grasp at something…anything.

But when God reveals, sometimes you just have to get it out. So here I sit again, reveling in His revealing! Several weeks ago, my mom sent me a song and told me that God had given her names of certain women and was told to send them the song. She explained that God told her why to send it to the other women, but nothing for me. Only that she was to send it to me. It’s a song I had heard many times before, but still I turned it on and listened. When I got to a certain point in the song, I started crying. And not pretty tears. I mean full on ugly crying (and of course it was as I was trying to get ready for work). I didn’t know why something I had heard so many times suddenly moved me to tears.

I’ve listened to it many times since then and every time at the same point in the song, I either tear up or cry. I still didn’t know why God had my mom send it to me or why it stirred something in me. Until today that is. I was thinking back on the word that is in the song and that I’ve gotten a few times since. “Glory”. I know that God has been telling me that this year, I will see His Glory but I still didn’t know what He meant.

This song I mentioned tells the story of Hagar, Ruth, David and Mary Magdala. When she sings of Hagar, Ruth and David, she sings of God meeting their needs where they are. That’s where I was last year. God was busy meeting all my needs through the loss of a family pet, my husbands deployment, a freeze, a flooded home and sudden move, a child’s broken arm, financial worries and many more. But when she gets to Mary of Magdala, It’s only “Glory! Glory! Glory, Hallelujah! I will be the Glory in your midst!”

And as I had a moment of silence in my car today, I thought back to 2021 as I listened to the song again. Every month I cried. Not tears of joy, but tears of sadness and hardship. Tears of worry and overwhelming stress. Trying to understand what God was doing. But then today God spoke. “Yes, but last month you cried tears of gladness and awe at My Glory and Goodness.” They were no longer tears of desperation, but of an overwhelming, underserving love. Tears at recognition that only God could do what He did. Only Him.

January of 2021 started off with tears of sorrow and loss. However, January of 2022 started off with tears of overwhelming awe at His goodness. This is the year to revel in the revealing of His glory!