Be Glad

Do you ever feel yourself get into a funk and you’re not sure why? I can’t explain the reasoning, but I have felt so off lately. Not myself. You find yourself just simply going through the motions, but you have a hard time being you. It’s not been a depression, but I have just been off for the last couple of months. I haven’t felt much like interacting with friends and have had to force myself out of my bubble. Even my mom has commented on how I didn’t seem like myself.
It wasn’t until the last weekend that it all sort of came crashing in. With my parents out of town and my husband away at drill for the weekend, I was alone with all 3 kids. We stayed in all day Saturday, which meant I didn’t really leave my bed. A friend invited us over for dinner and though I didn’t have dinner planned and the food sounded good, the idea of getting out of my pajamas was just awful. Another friend texted me all day about joining her family for a fun outing all day Sunday. I couldn’t respond because I couldn’t decide.
When Sunday morning came around, I began to get ready. I didn’t know if I would go with my friend or if I would go to church. All I know is that I was getting dressed for something. As the time to leave grew close, I just felt a pull at my heart to leave for church. I needed God. I told my kids to get dressed for church and texted my friend that we would not be joining her. After dropping my kids off in the children area, I made my way to the sanctuary. I found a seat off to the side by myself just as the worship began. Right then, I felt my heart lighten.
I closed my eyes and sang along knowing it was exactly what my heart had been needing. I sang about His wonderful name and then I stopped. I was overwhelmed with how good He is. I could only think of how grateful I am to have Him. What do people do when they fall into that trap of nothingness? How hopeless they must feel! I have God to call on. I must only speak His name and my soul rejoices!
I smiled at the thought of this. Just a few weeks ago, my sweet 5-year-old was covered in ant bites. Her foot had swelled up and she was walking funny. When I asked her if she was okay, her response to me was astounding. “I’m glad I have God” she said. We prayed and asked God to heal her foot but her words have stuck since and Sunday morning they hit me. I’m so glad I have God.
My soul rejoiced at His name and in His perfect presence. I haven’t felt like myself because I haven’t been spending as much time with Him. To ignore Him is to ignore myself. I can not find myself again until I focus on Him. But I need not worry because I have Him. He is mine. This is my hope. I can speak His name and immediately I begin to find myself again because He is there.

Normally here I would extend a challenge but today I tell you to be encouraged! Should you find yourself temporarily lost, remember that you have hope. You must only call on Him and your soul will rejoice at the sound of it. Be glad today that you have God!